All Lit Up (More or Less)

I'm still not in the mood for Christmas, but it's coming whether I like it or not, so I have to get ready. The presents are all purchased and wrapped, which is a huge load off of me. I didn't feel like putting up lights on my house, but I did anyway. Instead of stringing lights along the eaves, as I've done in the past, I tossed the lights on the shrubs. It was faster, safer and I think the results are good enough. I won't win any decorating awards, but that's okay. I'm just trying to get by this season.

I made the decision to not buy a tree. It's possible that I'll change my mind, but it will save time to skip it. But, I am missing the pine fragrance. The wreaths and other stuff just aren't doing the trick for me.

I'm not doing my traditional baking or candy making. Everyone is so concerned about health and diets, that very little of it gets eaten. I certainly don't want that stuff lying around here tempting me and keeping it in the freezer won't help. I'll eat it frozen.

I'm also coming up on the anniversary of my separation date. Why did I move out on Dec. 21? Couldn't I have waited until after New Years? Not only did that Christmas get screwed up, but every Christmas since then got screwed up too by the bad memories. I need to start making new memories to replace the old ones, but that's easier said than done.

Sorry about my mood. I know I'm not being much fun. I'll try to snap out of it. Maybe a Christmas tree will help along with some home-baked cookies and fudge. We'll see.