Recovering

The last few days I've been staying at my parent's house and haven't felt like blogging. It's been a difficult week, having lost sweet Murphy. The boys and I came home today and are having to adjust to an empty-feeling house.

Kelsey misses his best friend. He keeps pacing and going from stain to stain, sniffing Murphy scents. It is all so sad. After I pulled Murph from the pond, Kelsey frantically licked Murph's face for three hours. When I put Murph in his grave, Kelsey jumped in the hole and kept kissing Murphy. Murphy's grave is now covered with Kelsey paw prints.

There is a big clean-up ahead of me. Murphy bled from his nose and mouth as a result of the cancer and the blood is all over the house. The couch has been dragged outside and needs to be hauled away. I'm hoping that it doesn't get labeled as a biohazard.

The Pergo floors were ruined long ago from constantly being wet with pond water. When I get around to it, they will be replaced. I don't know if I can get the blood out of the carpet.

In a way, it's good that I have this project to keep me busy. It will help me stay in the present and not dwell on what has happened. For the first time, I'm looking forward to going to work. Even the worst day at work beats this kind of pain. Any distraction, even a sometimes bad one is welcome.

This will be my last sad post for awhile. I will be returning to my regular programming and catch up on everyone's blogs.

I appreciate so much everyone's kind thoughts over my loss. It has helped to know that so many people care. I'm lucky to have such good blogging friends.